Through His Eyes

At first the shock of that moment in the doctors office was unbearable, painful and terrifying! When my son ran into my arms, I wanted to take all of this away from him; as a parent when your child hurts you hurt. It took a while, but I had to learn that he wasn't hurting as I was. Keith has always had a strength in him...Some look at him and think he is unaware of the world around him. Say what you will, but I would much rather see the world through his eyes: completely content no matter what happens, whether is was due to lack of awareness or not. Nevertheless, from that day on, I consumed myself with finding out all I could about what autism was and wanted to know why and how this happens. I learned that when one hurts for any reason, most of it comes from wanting the answer to questions that start with these two words. "Why" and "how" cause so many people stress for years only leading to more confusion causing more anxiety. After years of blaming myself because there was no one else to blame, I realized that my focus was misplaced. Though I was using all the information I could to teach him, I wasn't allowing him to teach me. Things became so clear for me at different stages of his life because I learned to pay attention to how he saw things, which allowed me to help him in a way that was less stressful for everyone and more effective. To this day I try to pay close attention to how he sees things in order to help him...It isn't always easy for us, but we have to keep trying. Keith can do many things for himself because he wants to be independent and one day live on his own. That is something we all want for him, because it is something he wants for himself; one day that will happen! Everyone has heard that saying "you can't choose your family", but I would choose this life and this family every time! I am truly blessed to have the kids that I have and to have my best friend and husband beside me! Please feel free to leave a comment because I am grateful to have them!! Thanks for reading!! ~A Proud Mom~